Anonymous
Hello. I have always been made fun of my entire life, and still fight with mocking and teasing by my peers. I have always been overweight, and recently, have even begun to grow facial hair. (I am a girl.) It has taken a very big toll on me, and it has gotten so bad that i hate who I am. I used to like myself, but now, I can’t look in the mirror without comparing myself to everyone I know. For once, i would love to be the pretty girl with the perfect body and sparkly eyes that everyone loves. I don’t have a boyfriend, and I never have. It makes me feel that i’m more alone than anyone. I cut badly, and every time I try to stop, i can’t. I blame myself for the way I look, and taking the anger out on myself seems like the only appropriate way to make myself feel better; to harm the enemy. I have friends, and I’m talented, but none of that matters when i look in the mirror. Nobody I know understands how I feel, and I feel that no one truly does. I live in a small town where everyone has grown up together, so everyone knows who i am. it gives them a better chance ot make fun of me, because of course, the person they’re talking to knows who i am. I try not to let people’s opinions discourage me, but what about my own opinion? When it hurts my heart to go out in public because I think “everyone’s looking at me. my clothes don’t look good. my hair’s frizzy. i’m too fat.” It hurts. To be me, to feel the way I do, hurts. But if you ever feel insecure, just remember: There are the people like me who would think you were gorgeous. Who would think that they wanted to have your life.
